To all my beloved

TO THOSE WHO HAVE CONTRIBUTED TO MY SCHOOL FEES, I JUST WANNA TELL YOU GUYS, 

I WANNA DO YOU GUYS PROUD.

ESPECIALLY SO....

TO MY MUM. 

I WILL NEVER EVER FORGET THOSE HANDS THAT FEED ME.

ESPECIALLY TO GOD. WHO CONSTANTLY PROVIDES. 

But today, i felt so disappointed with myself. I will try harder next time. 

The other day, my sister told me that she saw my father on her way home. Today, i overheard her telling my mum that he passed by my sister. I was wondering to myself....what is the main cause of all of this? What makes my family what it is today? 

These few days, I thought about many things. I realised that it's not that i'm missing my father or anything...it's just that...I find the entire situation very pitiful. It's like...what if...what if....

I know everything happens for a reason. Sometimes, i wonder why. I wonder why God places in so many situations that it seems to have surpass the number of ordeals an adult might have gone through in comparison to age. [this is because i was taken aback when an adult told me so]. I wonder why God places in the family I am in. I wonder why I am who I am today. I wonder why I always have to fight for what I believe in, what I want in life. 

BUT GOD says...."For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD,thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope." Jeremiah 29:11. 

Everything happens for a reason. I know that I can trust in God...for my God reigns. 

Let Go and Let God

By Nikki Fletcher

At times I've found it difficult to trust. 

I like to be in control.

I'd like to be able to speed up that very 

certain future, because I've been sure

of what is best and what i want and

who i am and where I'm going and, and

actually it's never quite enough and, and

I don't want to mess it up and people are

watching and people are talking and I

have to keep up, actually I have to be on 

top and, and....

   Let Go

        Let Go

               Let Go

   

                           Let God. 

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I tried hard to forgive a man, who had just ruin my life. 

I struggled with God.

Till I let go. 

On that very morning.....

On a sunday..

It is then...

That I....

Let Go.

and...

Let God. 

Updates (5th May 2009)

1. Am going to help out at Audi Fashion Week- Wed, Thurs and Sat. Visit www.audifashionweek.com for more info.
2. Going to spend more time doing projects now. Better do it progressively so there would be lesser stress for the entire group when the mid-term exams or final exams are drawing near. 
3. Only need to go to school for 2 modules this week due to exemption from class due to Audi Fashion Week! How cool is that?
4. Has been eating instant noodles practically everyday....am becoming a good cook...but it's detrimental to my health. Help.
5. Am worried and kinda dreading 1st June to come. Am praying for a miracle from God (if you know what it is, please keep me in prayer. Thanks)

Will update again on sunday (hopefully). Will share about Audi fashion week...

Whee!! Here i come....Audi fashion week. 

What if it is going to be with you the rest of your life?

What happens....if you realized that you have got a fault in your life? Probably a health problem, an addiction, a personality disorder or mental health problem....What would you do?

Some would blame everyone and anyone, inclusive of their parents. Some would try to block it out, while others will look for a solution.

What if....there ain't a solution? What are you going to do? If it is constant thing that you have to fight against, would you fight? Or would you give up at one point in your life?

Poh shared this with us after cg the other day. Well, it's interesting to think about this. Poh said that Pastor Bobby was the one who shared this. Pastor Bobby's wife, Cindy, suffered from low self-esteem and negativity ever since she was young. Her family and all makes it worst. It got better when she knew God. Everyday, constantly, negative thoughts will fill her mind and she has to fight it off by telling herself positive things and the promises of the Bible. One day, as she was praying, she asked God why she kept having such thoughts. Then, she felt that God said this, "What if this is going to stay with you the rest of your life?"

Wow. How would you approach this? Everyone has a battle they have to fight in their life. Probably that obsession with food, that addiction to computer games, that uncontrollable rage within....whatever it may be...what if....it is going to be with you the rest of your life? What would you do?

Well..everyone has different approach to this. What is yours? The struggles i face in life, is definitely different from yours. My approach, will obviously differs as well.

Think this through. "What if...it is going to be with you the rest of your life?" What are you going to do?

Doing reflection is good for progress.