July the 5th

Alright. My birthday is coming (in case you didn't realise). And the date would be July the 5th. Well, many people do share the same birthday date as me (obviously!! just look at the statistics of birth count every day.) but the most important thing is, how are you gonna treasure every single moment you have in life, not only on your birthday. So, this year, i will be celebrating my birthday overseas!!! I am going for a mission trip. With my mum SOT's group. But not confirm yet until the approval of her in-charge. Anyway, lets just assume that i will be going, then i will be away!! Whee. But then again....nay. Being in a faraway island, trapped alone.....NAH! what ********. Haha...nope. Its so gonna be fun. Its EMERGE!!! Whee...


Anyway, as usual. Below is a list of my birthday WANT list. I emphasize on the WANT. (if you wish, the probability of it happening is very little. If you want it, its a demand.)

1. New MP3 Player (any brand...but must be one that i like)
   
2. New camera (preferably Sony)
   
3. True Religion Jeans. (its like i'm gonna start a collection soon)
4. Tops
5. $100 Voucher from CK Jeans
6. New perfumes (my dad threw all of mine away...crazy already)
   
7. MAC makeup
8. New bag
9. Money (tons of it)
   
10. Vouchers from Borders. (have been there quite often lately)
11. Box set of Copic Markers (the more the merrier)
12. Ferrari car models
13. New laptop (i had in mind what i want already)
14. Subscription for magazines

Hmm. I know i owe many people birthday presents. So i guess i wont be expecting much.

Surrender

I hang on safely to my dreams
Clutching tightly,
Not one has fallen.
So many years i shaped each one
Reflecting my heart
Showing who i am

Now You asking me to show
What I'm holding on so tightly
Can't open my hands
Can't let go
Does it matter
Should i show You?
Can You let me go?

Surrender, Surrender
You whisper gently
You say i will be free
I know but can't You see
My dreams are me.

Say You have a plan for me
That You want the best for my life
Tell me the world has yet to see
What You can do with
One that is committed to Your calling
Now of course I know what i should do
That I can't hold on to my dreams forever
If I give them now to You
Would You take them away
Forever
Or can I dream again?

Surrender, Surrender
You whisper gently
You say I will be free
I know but can't You see
My dreams are me


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Sometimes, i find it hard to trust, difficult to let others into my life. I want to be in control. I want to be in control. I want to be in control. I trust myself. I trust myse....

Let Go Let Go Let Go
Let Go Let Go
Let Go
Let...

Surrender...the hardest thing to do, but yet, the most comforting thing to do.

Happy Birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUN!!

Love

On Yilin's msn nick, she wrote, "love is like a rumor, everyone talks about it but no one truly knows". Wow. Its interesting, so i thought of penning down a post about my views on love. I wrote those poems myself, didn't edit it or gave much thoughts about it.


On Missing someone:

When i open my eyes,
I couldn't see you here.
Walking past hallways,
Emptiness is all i can feel.
Only then,
Do i realise,
The place reeks of coldness.

Even as i try my best,
To overcome,
I couldn't convince myself,
To believe that you are
No longer here.

But i guess i have to start,
Walking this lonely path of mine,
With you in my heart.
Even though we live a different life,
Our heart still beats as one.

On breakup, this is how i would feel:

Humans, or should i address
Women
Are not plants nor animals
So with your change of heart
Are we immune too?

Should i cry or laugh
To portray my mixture of feelings?
Should i make it seem like a fiction,
Or like a broken down fairy tale?

You, the man
Thought i should let you go
And let you fulfill the desires of your heart
As if i'm the cruel one here

Your happiness seems so believable
Your love makes me weak
I guess i can only say,
Breakup is the only way.


This video is for the song "First Love". My favorite song of all time.